That's Why.....

Man, sometimes we are just hit over the head, hard, with the answers we didn't even know we were looking for.

It's no secret this has been a rough year. Hell.....it has seemed that everything I touch turns to shit for the past 3, almost 4 years.  Since I moved up north.

I'll admit, I've been wallowing a bit. Wondering if I really did ruin my life. WHAT on EARTH made me move up there? What in the HELL was I thinking???

Well, I got my answers this morning. I've been working on a post about decorating for Christmas and wanted to link back to the last time I really got the chance to Deck the Halls.  It was December of 2004. The Christmas that Mama was down here. My last Christmas in Florida.

Well, I found the funny post I wanted to link to but then I read the first post from the next day.

It started out with a funny story of me mailing T1G his Christmas present. And then....hit me square between the eyes on just exactly WHY I turned my life upside down. It reminded me, but good, of my thoughts and concerns at that point in my life.

Mama got sick.

It reminded me of the panic I felt. The fear. And I couldn't help but keep reading.

Now, when I transfered posts to this site, I got a ton of duplicates, for whatever reason. But I just kept wading through.  Remembering.

And I'll tell you something. While my time up north didn't go exactly as I had planned, it was still the right thing to do.

Not only that, but I have gained so many added blessings because of it that I wouldn't change a thing. Not the good, the bad or the ugly.  I know in my heart of hearts there isn't one single decision I would change.

Well, except takin' that last mattress job, but that was just me being greedy. I would definitely change that.

This is one of the things I love most about blogging. And the fact that I've been at it almost 5 years now is great because it serves as a reminder.

And sometimes, a good dose of remindin' is exactly what we need to keep things in perspective.

Comments

[pam]

How true; we all need reminding of why we did stuff... perspective can be a precious commodity. ;)

[AWTM]

the reminder was needed, but I know you and how your faith works, you know God puts us where he wants us...

there are some tough choices to make in this life, and like you said, none of us want to live to regret those choices.

DH always says to me, "will it matter in 10 years?"

I think he is right...

When I quit working, it was not to care for my babies, it was to care for my Mother. I had no intention of staying at home at the time. I had day care lined up and was going to head back to work...after SR arrived.

But looking back I see quitting my job, not only allowed me to spend precious time with my Mother, it allowed me to see that we could live on one income, I just needed some practice...IT was a mixed blessing..

So take the time and look back, I know you did not want to be starting over at this time on your life....

No one likes to start over. Because it is hard, hard work....

However, you are the silver lining girl, and you will look back in 4 years and you will see how the puzzle fits together...

Someone told me once, that a person is sort of like film in a camera...they do not develop unless they are in a dark place...

I find comfort in that...and I do not know if it will help you out, but well it helps me when things are looking bleak...

[JihadGene]

God's got a sense of humor. Hell...He made me.
Praying for ya! JG